Today I woke up, picked Julia up, we went to stop and shop and she bought some food, then I went to band practice where we just jammed on still waiting and the new song and angelfuck. then we went to my apartment and we just sat here til a little while ago.
I haven't showered since like Tuesday. I'm itchy from how dirty I am, I need to shave. I am pretty tired and I'm def gonna fall asleep when I'm done typing. But then I have to drive Julia to work, then her Mom to work. Then I get a little bit of sleep then I go to the gym with Josh, then I am recording some vocals with Listen Up, should be fun.
DOES ANYONE KNOW WHERE I CAN GET TIGHT BLACK PANTS?
DOES ANYONE HAVE ANY TIGHT BLACK PANTS I CAN HAVE?
I didn't think so.
Life is so fuckin boring, you think you don't do anything? You're wrong. If I didn't have a band, I would never leave my apartment. I don't really like to go out and do anything. I hate going over peoples houses. I hate being around smoke. And chances are, I hate half the people at the house I WOULD be going to.
I'm tired I'm going to sleep.
Friday, March 30, 2007
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Mar. 27th, 2007 3:40 AM
ATTN: Depressing Entry don't read if you don't want to get brought down
Why does anybody do anything? There's no point. We all just die. I know that you know we all just die, but I can't stop thinking about it. Anyone we care about just dies, the memories are gone, there is no after life. I can't lie to myself.
And as far as being remembered goes...that doesn't matter either.Nothing we do, accomplish, or stand for will matter in the end. The fact is that when our Sun dies it will expand past Mars(burning up Earth) before shrinking back up and exploding...Ending all life as we know it.
So why do I even bother being straight edge, being vegan, being a good person at all. Why do I even waste my time being in a band and trying to write music? The world is just going to burn up and we're all going to die and nothing anyone has EVER done will matter to anyone. I can't think of one logical reason to even keep living, aside from the fact that I'm a human being with emotions and the emotion "fear" is keeping me from killing myself.
Does ANYONE else feel this way?
It doesn't even matter if anyone does, cus the worlds just going to die.
I guess (clearly), the only thing me or anyone can do is to just do whatever the hell they want in life, have as much fun as they can...and then just die.
The only way I will ever be happy is if someone tells me I can live forever.
Why does anybody do anything? There's no point. We all just die. I know that you know we all just die, but I can't stop thinking about it. Anyone we care about just dies, the memories are gone, there is no after life. I can't lie to myself.
And as far as being remembered goes...that doesn't matter either.Nothing we do, accomplish, or stand for will matter in the end. The fact is that when our Sun dies it will expand past Mars(burning up Earth) before shrinking back up and exploding...Ending all life as we know it.
So why do I even bother being straight edge, being vegan, being a good person at all. Why do I even waste my time being in a band and trying to write music? The world is just going to burn up and we're all going to die and nothing anyone has EVER done will matter to anyone. I can't think of one logical reason to even keep living, aside from the fact that I'm a human being with emotions and the emotion "fear" is keeping me from killing myself.
Does ANYONE else feel this way?
It doesn't even matter if anyone does, cus the worlds just going to die.
I guess (clearly), the only thing me or anyone can do is to just do whatever the hell they want in life, have as much fun as they can...and then just die.
The only way I will ever be happy is if someone tells me I can live forever.
Monday, March 26, 2007
Mar. 26th, 2007 at 1:46 AM
well I just tried to make muffins with baking soda instead of baking powder, which I KNEW wasn't going to work, but I tried anyways, and sure enough, they tasted really bad and I had to throw them away :(
Dave is over right now, we're watching south park.
I can't wait to get my money from taxes back so I can get some of my tattoos filled in.
I don't do anything. I just sit in my apartment, occasionally go to the store for food or whatever, go to the gym, and wait for Energy's next show. I have no life. I don't really mind though, it's ok.
Tomorrow...well, I'll probably just sit here all day. There's nothing I'm looking forward to except the new Energy cd...AND seeing Julia everyday when she gets home of course :)
I'm done, Go Vegan.
Dave is over right now, we're watching south park.
I can't wait to get my money from taxes back so I can get some of my tattoos filled in.
I don't do anything. I just sit in my apartment, occasionally go to the store for food or whatever, go to the gym, and wait for Energy's next show. I have no life. I don't really mind though, it's ok.
Tomorrow...well, I'll probably just sit here all day. There's nothing I'm looking forward to except the new Energy cd...AND seeing Julia everyday when she gets home of course :)
I'm done, Go Vegan.
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