Yes

I just got back from Mike's house, and now I'm bored again. My brother just sent me a link that lists Energy as one of the top 10 hardcore bands to check out, that's pretty neat, even though I am not sure if we're exactly a "hardcore" band, but whatever, I'll take it.

Here's the link: http://music.ign.com/articles/958/958176p1.html

Seems like some of the folks on the B9 board don't care for us too much, oh well, I called that one. When we posted our very first demo in April of 2006 on that board, a lot of people said that they liked it a lot. When I saw the positive comments, I said to everyone, "don't worry, we'll be the cool thing to hate before you know it." It's fine though. I try not to read public opinions, reviews, or anything like that involving the music that I make because if they're saying bad things, then you could potentially start to believe them, and then start to modify your future art accordingly. If they are praising you, then you might start believing that you are awesome, and that you don't need to pour your heart and soul out anymore in order to have people like your art. Both of those are pretty frightening, so I will stick to the only non damaging option and avoid it at all costs. I am absolutely fine with people not liking us though, because I am a sane rational human being that can accept the fact that not everyone is going to like everything I do. People mistake expressing opinions for shit talking all of the time, its pretty dumb. Everyone should be allowed to say "I really hate Energy's music, they just don't do anything for me" or "I don't believe that there is any passion behind this band whatsoever", as much as they should be allowed to say "good dudes, they worked hard". I honestly think that when I read some of the positive comments people leave about us, I get MORE offended than if they told us that we sucked. I'll take a constructive, thought out, negative comment over an empty, repetitive, mindless praising compliment any day.

Well either way, I thought it was pretty cool that we are on a top 10 list somewhere as a band to check out. Hopefully that list will get spread around on the internet a lot and a few new people will get into us.

Today me and Julia went to Whole Foods and we got pizza stuff, Donut holes, cookies, pudding, muffins, ice cream, and a lot more stuff. I am pretty happy about that. She slept over and is still asleep. I have yet to go to sleep and it's almost 7 am. I have been listening to White Zombie a lot lately. I just figured that I'd mention that. I didn't write for me and Jon's daily poetry/lyric slam-sesh tomorrow, oh well, I won't be online much anyway seeing as my uncle, who I haven't seen in like 13 YEARS is coming over all day tomorrow, so I doubt I'll even get a chance to talk to him. Speaking of that, I don't know what time he plans on coming over, but I've been going to sleep between 7 and 10 am, and waking up between 3 and 5 pm. That should be intersting.

My brother just sent me Forgetting Sarah Marshall, and I am burning it to DVD right now. Julia is going in to work at around 9 am, and is coming home like 4 hours later. I wonder if she's coming over after work to meet my uncle. I also wonder if Eric will be there too. I never think of things like these until people are asleep. I wonder what my uncle will be like. Anyone that I haven't seen in 10 years or more might as well be a complete stranger at this point, so I might as well be meeting my mom's brother for the first time in my life. I just hope that he isn't an asshole. I hope that he's not one of those people that thinks its funny to "jokingly" poke fun at the things about me that are different. I hope there is just a lot of friendly conversation, and the very predictable talk of when I was "this" little, etc. I hope it doesn't turn into him giving me shit about not eating meat or something. That's what it always turns into. That, or some topic that I'm against, that they just HAVE to let me know they disagree with me on. Even if he's the biggest asshole on the planet to me, I just have to laugh everything off because he's a relative. Whatever, I just hope its not TOO awkward.

Currently listening to:



No lyrics/poetry today =(

Yes

I went to Town Spa with Julia and Eric today, that was fun. Me and Julia went back to my moms and hung out for a while. Before she left, I picked up my ipod from Eric, I gave it to him at Town Spa to put every episode of Seinfeld on it. I now have every episode of Seinfeld. I went home and Julia drove home. I wish I had more time to hang out with her. I think a lot of the reason why I stay up all night, and sleep all day, is so that I wake up and she's home.

I don't have much to update about today. Tomorrow (today) is Friday which means Julia is staying over =) She's the best. I look forward to seeing her every single day of my life. I can't see how people stay with people for so long when their feelings have clearly faded over time. Every day that passes I love Julia more than I did the previous day. It's sad to think that a lot of people are just together to be together, and they never experience actual love. They'll never know what it feels like to be able to truly act like yourself around someone else. At no point when me and Julia are hanging out do either of us wonder what the other is thinking, or whether we should or shouldn't say something. Think about how comfortable you are in your own skin when you are completely by yourself, that's how we are in each others company. She's the best.

Purely coexist
Separate from all the rest
I am you are me

Bill Hicks died 15 years ago today...

I am constantly thinking of things that bother me, but I have a hard time writing a lot of the time. This doesn't make sense.

I am still sick, it sucks. I've been trying to drink a lot of juice to make myself get better.

I feel that this post should be mostly about Bill Hicks, seeing as he died 15 years ago today. I'll start off by posting his "Revelations" video.



Every single time I get all excited about Bill Hicks, I get saddened by the fact that he's dead. I think that if there was 1 person in the world that I could choose to bring back to life it would be him. He was just an amazing, inspiring, hilarious, person, with all the right ideas for a peaceful existence. Who knows what he could have accomplished in these past 15 years. I think that at some point during every single day, I quote Bill, or bring up something he said.

I just spent a lot of time making this video and I should be going to sleep, so this is the end of my entry:

Another hero sleeps
We can only hope you're dreaming
And with joy an angel weeps
Weathered souls need no redeeming