it's like 2 in the morning and i'm depressed so if you don't like my updates when i'm depressed stop reading now...
i despise so many things i can't take it anymore. anytime anyone treats women like objects, laughs at the exploitation of women,makes homophobic remarks,makes sexist remarks, abuses their body,doesn't give veganism any type of thought....ughh i don't know. i can't go out and be a dick and hate everyone who isn't like me because then i wouldn't have any friends now would i?
i let myself down everyday of my life = not a good thing
tomorow the new AFI cd comes out, i can't wait.
i need to get on the ball with writing. WRITING, whether it be lyrics, journal entries, LIVE journal entries, or that letter to dana that i keep putting off writing. i get so mad at myself for not doing any of these.
on a positive note: gym at 1pm with sick routine has been going good for the last week. in order for me to routinly do anything it needs to be at a pre-decided time or it won't get done, and that in itself is a problem in my eyes. OR maybe it's not, maybe if i set a time and date for my writing it will finally happen. eh, i over-annalyze EVERYTHING.
i always think back to the days where AFI's "The Art Of Drowning" just came out and it makes me really sad. i dont quite know why, but i want to cry everytime i think back on those days. circa 2001-2003. when i used to live at my grandmother's=ALONE...
i can't wait until my hair grows long...i am NEVER going to cut it short again.
I'm not embarassed or ashamed in the least about the fact that I don't work. but i am dissapointed in myself for not having more self control,will power, and/or the initiative to sit the fuck down and just do what i WANT to do most of the time.
I wish every day was Halloween...
i guess that's it for now
thanks for reading...
