Feb. 15th, 2007 at 2:49 PM

I leave for tour AGAIN tomorrow. I don't want to. I want to stay here in Stoughton with Julia and all my friends. I don't think this will ever change. I will always get really upset before I'm leaving, and just want to go home the whole time I'm gone. I enjoy playing every night more than anything, I just wish I could take everyone from Stoughton with me, then I wouldn't care at all that I was leaving. This time around will be interesting because Dan's coming, and it's our first tour with our solid 5 piece line-up. I went to Al's house last night with Dave. I didn't realize how long it's been since I've been there. His whole upstairs is re-done. He even fixed the infamous dangling ceiling fan in his room! It's sad knowing that it's not possible for me to sleep over there and worry about the fan crashing down on my face in my sleep. I know that sounds weird, but every time a little thing in life like that changes, it feels like a part of me dies. With this mentality, I can only get more depressed and sad as the years go on. I dread the day Al moves from that house, and I can't just turn down Rose Glenn and stop in and hangout. Because, the day will come someday. I can't bullshit myself. 

It's 3:00 and all I can think about is leaving tomorrow. I'm going to my mom's to eat later on, I think Eric might be going too. I just can't take being away from home for so long. 

Feb. 14th, 2007 at 2:20 AM

WELL

Tour was fun, missed home allot. I can't really describe it without describing a million different specific things that happened, so I won't bore you.

Today I woke up, at like 4 and Julia came home with a flat tire...so that took a while. Then I went to Tj's with Eric, it was awesome. I got lost on the way home. 

I need to get my nails done soon. I need to get tattoos soon. I'm growing my hair out all the way, probably shoulder length, I can't wait.

Rob is no longer a member of Energy, it just didn't work out. Joe and Dan are now our permanent guitarists. Finally we have a solid line-up. I am looking forward to writing our LP with the 2 of them. It's going to sound completely different than our E.P. does.

I want a voice recorder.

I got a couple new Henry Rollins books from the book store.

I'm always hungry.

I'm always bored.

There's never anything to do.

Today is Valentines day - I love you Julia!

We are going to Allston for food tomorrow(...or today), I can't wait. I missed her so much while I was gone. I see her every single day and almost NEVER get into arguments with her. I am in a constant state of happiness whenever I'm around her. Nobody could ever make me happier than she does.

I'm going to go watch some TV now.