Seeing Ministry was amazing aside from a few things. I was right up front and got to see Al and the band up close. It was incredible. They played half of the new album, and the rest of the set was older songs. I did however bruise my rib and lose a shirt in the pit. I was really angry at the time when I lost the shirt, but it's obviously something I just had to accept. I tried buying another one after the show was over and they sold out of my size. Only extra smalls left...bummer. I'm hoping their website might have leftovers eventually.
The Zheani show was really fun. We were right up front for this one too except this was a really small club. It was Zheani's first ever tour of the U.S. and she gave me the mic for a few lines during my favorite song of hers "Tarantulas". I got a long sleeve, a zine, and a vinyl record of her new album "The Spiritual Meat Grinder". PiX got the same things as I did, except she got a different shirt.
After the show, we were able to meet and take photos with Zheani. We were both so nervous and starstruck. She thanked me for singing along and complimented PiX's outfit. Absolutely mind-blowing to meet her after admiring her work for so many years.
We slept in my car in a Walmart parking lot using the mattress from our couch. Once we woke up we decided to spend the day in Times Square because we were already in New York. We've been together for almost 7 years now and it was our first real "vacation". This was a more than incredible experience. We'd been to concerts before the pandemic, but this was truly a special outing that I'll never forget :)
I haven't spoken to my mother since early December. Sometimes I feel bad about it, but it's for the best. She's the main source of most of my traumas. She sets off my BPD and my bipolar way too often and sends me into manic frenzies. I've been in a much calmer place mentally and emotionally since I cut her off. Again, I feel bad...but it's for the best.
She didn't wish me a happy birthday, and I didn't wish her one either. Today is actually her birthday.
My dad's birthday was yesterday and I visited him on Saturday. My brother Eric was there with his girlfriend Emma. PiX was too sick to go. They gave us a bunch of vegan snacks, but they made PiX and I sick the next day. We've been trying to cut sugar out of our diets and it was just a total overload eating what they gave us. I hate having to deal with food. Apparently my eating disorder is called "Avoidant/restrictive food intake disorder (ARFID)". That's all I'll say about that.
PiX has been painting a lot which always makes me happy. I've been working on my own artistic endeavors, but I've successfully avoided speaking on them publicly. You'll know when everyone knows.
That's about it for now. I'm going to end this post with a bunch of photos from our trip.
MINISTRY / GARY NUMAN
(March 18th, 2024)
