May. 16th, 2006 at 11:24 AM

I'm sitting at my mom's with nothing to do.

she gave me the daily "you're amounting to nothing" lecture and went on her way to work....

she said I should be at least ON MY WAY to being sucessful, and she's dissapointed that she can't depend on me. 

Not my fault she chose the most dreadful life path desireable (In my eyes at least)

It really didn't get to me, what got to me was the fact that she's so hung up on paying for shit she doesn't need, and worrying about wether or not she can tell the people she knows that her oldest son is "Doin allright..."

We're all just going to die, haha, why worry?

it seems so obvious to me what path I am, and SHOULD be chosing, but it's clearly not so obvious to the rest of the world...

i know that nobody reads this

THIS RAIN HAS KILLED MY WILL TO DO ANYTHING CONSTRUCTIVE. if this was going to be how the weather was for the rest of my life, i would surely kill myself very soon.

OK NOW FOR THE NOT SO DEPRESSING PARTS:

ENERGY has a show this THURSDAY with GO IT ALONE/LISTEN UP/MELTDOWN....please go to this, I pretty much did go it alone a favor by hooking them up with a MA date, and i would feel bad if nobody was there...so not even really for my band - PLEASE GO its only like 6 bucks and what the HELL else are you gonna do on a thursday night for CHEAP that's better than seeing a few friends bands and THE BEST BAND IN HARDCORE(Go It Alone)??? NOTHING you're gonna get fucked up or sit around and be boring, that's what you;re going to do...

We will be recording our cd sometime in JUNE probably(next month) at the legendary OUTPOST in stoughton(most likely) and it will be out late june to mid july on ROCK VEGAS RECORDS!!!

i'm so siked on that, there's nothing i am happier about right now than the fact that people seem to enjoy my band,we have a cd coming out on a label...and we have some pretty big shows coming up...

www.myspace.com/thisenergy

I'm so happy I have someone in my life that I can talk to about anything, be cute with, and just plain EXIST contently without having to feel like we have to prove anything to each other

i love you julia


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May. 11th, 2006 at 9:16 AM

well...... 

NOT WORKING IS THE BEST THING THAT CAN POSSIBLY HAPPEN TO ANYONE.

READ THIS BOOK:

http://www.crimethinc.com/a/evasion/

lately i've been doing far more important things than working such as:

Reading
Writing
ENERGY
Hanging out with friends
Hanging out with Jullia :)
etc.

I don't ever want to get another job ever again haha

with my government checks i receive for being unemployed(yes the concept baffles me too), I will purchase a 60 GB VIDEO iPod probably next tuesday or wednesday, once i get the program to burn dvds onto my iPod from Ross, i will be able to have EVERY cd/song/music video/dvd, any type of visual or audio media for that matter, in my pocket and able to watch and listen to at any and all times...i can't fucking wait haha....


www.myspace.com/thisenergy

we have a show this sunday at the tiger's den with the distance and a loss for words, then thursday we're playing with go it alone and listen up at the same place, then the next night in Rhode Island with Go It Alone/Meltdown/Verse/Learn/Resist....

please go to one of, if not all of these shows, i will love you forever if you do... 

:)

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