Saturday, January 21, 2006

Jan. 21st, 2006 at 8:00 PM

haven't updated this in a while so this WILL be long.... if i can get to a real computer more often, i'll update more often. not that anyone wants to read it but hey

i sucessfully completed moving out of my apartment today, it was a good feeling. i no longer have the keys and i live with the pelosis in the basement with tony for now, until me and Julia can save up for an apartment. i really want to get one in stoughton,a nice cheap one room apt in stoughton, i can have my friends over whenever i want and it will be nice and relaxing :)

i feel really bad about the way things turned out but i feel as if i did the right thing - look out for myself and what will really make me happy. ehhh enough on that topic,everything will work itself out eventually...

ummm yeah i still work at the NEW ENGLAND SINAI HOSPITAL and i still HATE MY LIFE BECAUSE OF IT

eric got a job somewhere, i might see if i can get a job there for 10 bucks an hour. i just flatout NEED to make more money and get the fuck away from those fuckin idiots that think i'm a loser and incompetant because i PURPOSLEY DON'T DO MY JOB RIGHT BECAUSE I DON'T GIVE A FUCK, and i am ALWAYS LATE because NO ONE ON EARTH can just WAKE UP at 4:45 AM and just GO....

fuck'em i can't wait til my last day

but yeah i got more tattoos since my last update, Ross quit pins and needles i guess, which sucks, don't really know how i'm gonna get ink now...until i find out where he's workin now or i call him or whatever but as for right now, shit.

but then again it doesn't even really matter because i don't have the money to be blowing on tattoos anyways because i NEED to be saving for an apartment. 

my Dad said he was gonna punch me in my face - haha

my mom insists Al's House is the worst thing that ever happened to me and that the mentality there is what ruined mine and Eric's relationships with BOTH of our parents....direct quote.

ughh im not gonna go off on a rant on how my parents suck or anything but jesus fucking christ this is ridiculous...

hmmm what else has been going on, oh yeah, there is this plant called HENNA, that the hair stylist at Sinai suggested i use to dye my hair, she said she would be REALLY shocked if i had any type of allergic reaction to it because it is just a plant, well of course i use it and i'm allergic to it, oh well, i guess i am just going to have to abandon the idea of having a jet black devilock and go with my natural hair color, not the end of the world i guess.

still no luck with getting a band together, yet at least. mikey D said he'd start somethin up with me and conor and that he knows musicians, he wants it to sound like Kid Dynamite Meets Shut Your Mouth And Open Your Eyes Era AFI, which i am MORE than down for so we'll see if that ever fuckin happens, or if it's just another pointless attempt at trying to convince myself my music career might begin...probably the latter.

today i was feeling very nostalgic.
reminiscing of my younger years at Al's house and the skate park, listening to Stoughton based bands(probably sparked by the fact that last night i saw the Lost City Angels play stoughton high's auditorium, featuring Chris Duggan himself) i listened to RANCID - ...AND OUT COME THE WOLVES all the way through as well...i drove around the old neighborhood and where we used to hang out. i used to do this very often but hadn't in a while. it was sad, it always is. i will never feel the way i did back then and i will never be able to re-live those times. there's really no use thinking about it because it only hurts, so enough for now, but i'm sure i will write of plenty more memories in the future.

as far as my short term goals go:

1. Open a bank acount somewhere so that A. i can start saving for the Apt. and B. i can renew my gym membership
2. Renew my gym membership
3. get a new job
4. start to get a band going
5. fix things with my parents

time will only tell if these things will happen, i hope to do all of which before my birthday

i guess that's it for now 'til next time, thanks for reading.

Jason

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