Mar. 8th, 2006 at 2:59 PM

i have been awake since 6:30 downloading music/writing and i would like to stop, but really, what could i do, maybe read. i haven't done that yet today. but i'm sure i will, and then want to do something else. i could go out and sit in a room with a bunch of my friends and then, later, be upset at how much i wasted my day sitting around, not talking and being discontent, as i am every day.

whoever you are, take this personally:

i don't care enough to let you know what i'm really thinking

i don't want you to know

it will only bring further questions and judgement that only reflects your own insecurities
and i will lose my patience with you, and dismiss the argument that should have remained a pleasant conversation, as your own anger towards yourself, your flaws, and your lack of compassion.

chances are i don't even know you

you definatly don't know me

we sit in empty rooms alone, thinking of one another and our thoughts, or at least what I think are "your" thoughts

i do not know you, and you have no idea why i am even writing this

whatever it is that you will dismiss this as, is wrong.

i cannot feel,because i choose not to.



i can't go out into public because i can't stand to see people that i would never want to get close to.
and they are everywhere.


stop judging - take this for what it is worth - and just shut the fuck up for once and think about yourself. think about what you've been meaning to change, what you've been meaning to do. and act already. stop wasting time and just do it.

every one = EVERY ONE is so quick to judge

"well he's just doing this cus he's this"
"he doesn't know what he's talking about"
"what an idiot"
"what is he thinking"
"what was goign through his head"
"is he retarded"
"he just wants attention"

just shut the fuck up and stop worrying about everyone except who you should really be concerned with.

"well i can't beleive he's writing this who does he think he is"

i am me
you are not me
you will never know how it is to be me
i will never know how it is to be you

So for the last time


Sit Yourself Down Alone



and address the real dilema



thank you for reading