Well............it's that time again.
Time to tour.
I can't take it I'm going to miss Julia so much, I don't even get to see her enough as it is. Everyone probably thinks that's all I do cus I don't do anything, I must just hang out with her all the time but...no, no I never see her, never mind do we get to spend time alone. She's always working to pay for us to live. And when she does come home she either goes right to bed or I'm busy doing something. It sucks. I hope we get to spend at least one day together before I leave Sunday, I'm shooting for 2. I see everyone else that I want to enough that it wouldn't be so bad if I didn't see them again before I left. No one I know has been there for me like she has(even though we've gone through our share of hard times), no one has done as much as she has, she's just the best and I'm going to miss her more than anything. Like today, I didn't even do anything until when she got home at like 9:00 I was at my grandmother's until 10:30, so I get home and she goes to bed, I really only see her for like a half an hour every day...and now I'm not even going to be able to have THAT once I'm on the road... :(
Other than me missing her, tour will be great, Josh will be coming with us, we'll be running and working out all the time, great weather, I get to play every single night, I'll see a bunch of new places I've never been to(including the western states), a bunch of new shirts, we have our new 3 song cd sampler....
which by the way, came out awesome, I've never been more proud of any recording. I love the lyrics I used, I love the melodies, Joe and Chris Curran helped out a lot with production and whatnot, overall it was just awesome recording with him. I have been listening to it all the time. It's definitely something I would go out and buy if I weren't in the band....I just can't wait to get the final versions back and have them up on the Myspace and be able to hand them out to people....It's a pretty drastic change of sound for us but....This is how I've always wanted Energy to sound like - This is the type of band I want to be in - and I am finally happy with the band's sound.
As far as things that I will be looking forward to coming home to goes:
I will be with Julia, and we will get to watch the season premiere of the office together :) which makes me happy cus I know how much she loves that show.
And we will be moving out of our apartment in like august or September or something and moving into North Stoughton Village. That place is so nice, the apartments there are like 3 times the size of the one we live in now and it's barely any more money. The place has a trash shoot inside the building so if we want to take out the trash not only do we not have to go outside but we can just walk down the hall in our pajamas and do it. There's just a lot more little things like that that make the place awesome so it'll be great once that time of year comes....but until then, we'll just have to let time pass.
Time passing....we always look forward to things, and want it to be that much further into the future....but we are never happy with right now, we've always got something in the works. It's kind of stupid if you think about it. I should just enjoy the fact that it's NOT that far into the future, and that I still have those months of my live ahead of me to LIVE. I shouldn't just keep looking forward to seeing Julia, I should be excited that it's inevitable that I WILL see her, and be ecstatic with the fact that I have all this time to live, see the country, experience things, and just see tomorrow.
Like Henry Rollins once said, "That's the only break you get, you get to live tomorrow, you get to go on, you get to move forward, and it might not seem like much, but for me, right now, it's all I'm hangin' on to, and it's all I've got goin', and it's all I'm gonna stick with."
I think that that is what I should stick with for this summer, if not, for the rest of my life.
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