Dec. 29th, 2006 at 4:15 AM

I never go out unless I'm playing a show. I don't read as much as I'd like to. I don't workout nearly as much as I'd like to. I don't write music as much as I'd like to.

At the end of every single day I want to know that: 1. I got smarter than I was when the day started. 2. I got the proper exercise for the day. and 3. I wrote a peice of music I'm proud of, not even a whole song, maybe just a line or 2.

I just let the days pass on by, and soon I will be 30 and that scares me. I'm almost 22...IN EIGHT YEARS I AM GOING TO BE 30 YEARS OLD.

Tonight, Energy played the Hudson Roller Kingdom. Mikey D played with us. It was fun. He's one of the nicest/coolest people I think I've ever known. I hope our cd comes out soon. It's almost embarassing how long it's taking to come out. We have had all those songs written for like 6 months now. They are old news to us...but will be NEWS to everyone else. I guess that's good,and will keep us one step ahead of anyone that cares about us. But at the same time I feel like everyones saying "that's all you've got?" when, I know that ISN'T the best we can do, it's just a collection of the first 7 songs we wrote together. I don't know, I'm rambling.

I wish I wasn't allergic to hair dye. I wish my hair was just naturally black. I don't think it's bad that I care so much about the way I look. It's just a hobby pretty much. I know that personal appearance doesn't define someone, so knowing that I know that, makes me know that I'm not a bad person, I just really concentrate on how I look alot. That's the one thing I wish I could change about my personal appearance...natural black hair. Son Of A Bitch.

Julia had cookies and ice cream for me when I got home from the show. She's always thinking of me, and I'm always thinking of her :) She makes me genuinely happy. Even though I am very sad all the time, I am hardly ever sad when I'm with her. That makes me know that we belong together.

I took an IQ test and it said I was of "Superior Intellect"

I only took this test because everyone calls me stupid all the time and I know that I'm not.

What people say, even in a joking manner, gets to me way more than I let people realize. Even to this day I don't think people really like my band. I mean, clearly if they're singing along and having a good time they must right? I just can't help but think they're singing along cus they can't beleive how bad it is or something. Like the way my friends would sing along to a cover of an old song by some shitty local band or something, Or, like the Truman Show, where it's all a big joke on me, I don't really know how to describe what I'm trying to say. 

I don't know one person that I can talk to about my favorite bands.
Everyone I know likes bands I don't like. The only time I feel comfortable in a conversation with anyone, is when it's about music...and that's in the slim chance they're talking about a band I like. Hardcore Punk kids...are only into hardcore and punk...people into other stuff...dislike Hardcore Punk. Is it really that weird that I like mostly EVERYTHING? I probably listen to every style of music I like, pretty evenly. I just enjoy the fast raw emotion of hardcore punk.

This is getting long, I'm sorry, I'll end this

Dec. 22nd, 2006 at 9:40 AM

It's 8:30 AM, I slept from like 12 to 4. I hope to fall asleep again soon. 

We did that documentary thing last night. It was cool. I guess Henry Rollins turned down the offer to be in it...bummer, however, Keith Morris(singer of Black Flag,Circle Jerks) WILL be in it, along with Dave Smalley(singer of DYS, Dag Nasty), Slapshot, and a TON more. 

Why they chose US to be in the video, I don't know,but hey,I'll gladly be in a documentary film with members of Black Flag! They said they'd Definitely use some of the footage from our interview which is cool. They said that the Documentary will come out on Taang! Records sometime in 2008.

I don't know what I'm doing today. I don't really care either. I dont really have anything else to say.

Dec. 20th, 2006 at 9:59 AM

My sleeping pattern is really screwed up now. I don't even have a set time I sleep anymore. I'm like a cat. All throughout the day I just randomly sleep. Last night I went to bed around 11:30pm, slept off and on, and woke up at like 7:30am though. I hope I don't end up being awake through the day and sleep all night.

I'm going to Allston again tonight with Julia Duck for yum yums. Can't wait :)

I got a new cell phone with a new number. Message me on www.myspace.com/xtankx with your number and I'll send you mine! 

Sometime this week Energy has a video interview for A Boston Punk/Hardcore documentary. Some of the other bands being interviewed are: The Unseen, Colin Of Arabia, And Death Before Dishonor. Should be fun!

Also, Zane at Pins And Needles said he'd cover up my X's! (basically for free cus he's apprenticing) I'm siked. I think I'm going to put a big Jack O' Lantern over it :) Then, with any christmas money I get, I'm going to Ross and starting on the rest of my other arm. This way I'll be nice and covered for tour, and I can start wearing sleevless shirts alot and not be embarassed* of what's on one of my arms.

Josh got his Friendship last night from Zane, it looks awesome. I'm really impressed with how good he is ESPECIALLY for only tattooing for like a month. I'll probably get a friend ship tattoo of the Black Sails Ship on my foot I think. My thoughts on foot tattoos is this: No one's feet are attractive. They are the least cool to look at part of your body, and are covered up by shoes 99 out of 100 times...so whynot decorate them? I will not get any neck, hand or face tattoos however. Long sleeve shirt and pants will cover everything.

I hope I can fall, and stay asleep after I write this, until Julia gets home and we just go right to Allston.

Dec. 11th, 2006 at 3:58 AM

so, in about 10 days or so the Energy 8 song cdep will arrive and I will be the happiest person on earth. Ever since I first got into music I've been waiting for that moment, the moment where I have a cd of original songs that me and my band wrote, in a jewel case, with a booklet/artwork and everything.

Video Shoot this weekend for the song "Streetlights"
If you want to be in it get in contact with me on myspace or something(i'm sure anyone reading this will know about it because only my close friends read this)

Another thing - I KNOW you don't know the song, because It's not out yet, soooo IF you want to learn the words to sing along in the video then get in contact with me and I'll show you the song or somethin.

I'm Not Sure which day it'll be, Saturday Or Sunday, Not sure where, hopefully at al's.

One year ago today I was hating my life because it looked like I'd NEVER get a band together, and a year later I have a full US tour scheduled, Cd coming out, and doing a music video.....

I don't think ANYONE wants to be a carreer musician more than I do. I REALLY hope this works out for me and doesn't fall apart.

I wonder what I'll be doing a year from today, touring the world? Without A band? Dead? Only time can tell.....

BRAND NEW SONG (Probably "Bushwhacked") WILL BE UP SUNDAY NIGHT HERE : http://www.myspace.com/thisenergy

Another New Song Is Up Now (Intro/Keep The Change) HERE: http://www.myspace.com/rockvegasonline

Dec. 10th, 2006 at 4:49 AM

I helped Julia's mom move today for about 5 hours. Saw Anal Cunt Last night.

I'm done

Energy with Converge, Some Girls, Modern Life Is War, and Blacklisted in Revere, MA

All photos by returntothepit.com